Why Is forbidden things feel so good?

Jealousy..

Is when you despise someone for having a centain thing that isnt within your grasp.

Love..

Is what you feel towards a special person, and sometimes, for somewhat unexplainable reason.

Jealousy..

Is when you desire to recreate or if possible steal the thing you're jealous about.

Love..

Is shared by two person feeling a strange but delightful feeling towards others.

Can it be jealousy?
There's no relation.. thus no love..
So am I jealous?
But there's nothing to be jealous about?

Things are starting to run in and out of my mind since I started thinking of her.
I've felt this way before, I've felt it many times actually, All in the last minute, Because when I feel this feeling, Next day you'll know is they have a boyfriend, they'll be moving out, I cant see them again because its graduation, things like that..

(But now..)

All this is because of my cowardness, my shyness, not having the courage..

(Now, Maybe now..)

But is this the right thing?

(Yes, Now.. Now will definitely..)

No, its not, its not the time, I still have things to do, things to prove, I still have to make them happy

(But am I happy? I want her.. I want her bad..)

But do I have a choice?..

(Do I?..)

The Thing About Being Single (DarkSide)

To others, Being Single is Okay, flirting with others and that, I hate to say it but I have that virtue as well, but late at night, when I stare point blank at the ceiling, it hit me, and made me wonder what if...

What if I have someone with in this empty bed of mine?, someone to stare with me on that ceiling up above, looking with me, no questions asked..

what if I have someone to hold at this cold night?, to drive away that cold night, with her warm hug, and a kiss that can melt my heart into unconsciousness, waking up with her in my arms..

what if I stopped thinking about this? what if I shut my mind up and go to sleep? and in the morning, tell that girl thats been on my mind about how I feel?.

"Oh Sure Easy for you to WRITE, why dont you do it?"(hey who said that??).

But whoever that was, hes right, why dont I just do what I just wrote? why bother myself thinking about this things? well, thats because of my lack of strenght, in short "SHY" Im not proud to say that im one of those person, but maybe.. maybe im not shy, maybe I just dont want to hurt others, maybe I just dont want to get hurt, maybe im just waiting for the right one, or maybe im just making all these excuse up.. (//_T).

__Am I just thinking of her To forget about her?